it's been a long LONG time since i last REALLY blog. haha. since i'm quite free now, so jiu blog lo. =)
have not been doing much these few weeks though, going driving lessons, shopping, working, nua-ing. tts all. yes. nth interesting. sianx. but luckily mother went back kl for like 1 weeks plus plus n of cox i FULLY UTILISE these few days to 'join' the lif tt i'm really in. haha. go out without worrying about timings curfews all those shit. haha. want to stayover jiu stayover, dun go home jiu dun go home, n did spent quite alot of time with BLAH cox he can like walk in n out my hse like freely literally. lol. after mother came back, everyday went back to the restricted ones. =S not saying im not use to it, is just... bo bian.. =.=
around 3 weeks more jiu CNY lo!!! =DDD now in the midst of looking for CNY outfits. lol. was online shopping like a crazy. AH!!! =[[[ cannot shop anymore........ unless is for CNY. haha. decided to devote my this 2 weeks to work n driving lessons. cox of the FREEDOM HOLIDAYS last 2 weeks,i have been skipping quite alot of lessons, n which explains why von start at the same time as me n she ended while im still caught in the middle. haix. but still.... i find it worthwhile~ =D hahahahhahahahahahaha.
k. basically im too restless to able to type anything anymore.
you've finally say out the word that i never wanted to hear.
for this, i made my point to regain back to before, when i'm still studying.
i told myself : i can do it back then, i don't see why i can't do it now. but.... still.. it's easier said than done.
i hate myself for being too free while other frens are still busy with their work/school.
and so i've no one else to turn to except you, but yet, our feelings are not mutual, i'm contented while you feel constrained.
seriously, i'm totally at lost.
i'm really trying very hard now to occupy myself with things so as to not meeting u.
i'm really trying. very hard. .
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